There have been many times over the course of the last few months where I have questioning myself. I worry constantly that I am not good enough, question my own thoughts and beliefs, and wonder if what I am doing is what I should be doing.
Most of the time, I find myself questioning and doubting myself. Why? I do my absolute best to give it my all when I am on the field with the athletes. I stay true to my teachings and my beliefs, but I’m always open to new perspectives and ideas. I am there to serve and help whoever I get the opportunity to work with. If they want the help, I am there. If they do not want the help I am still there, but I’m always going to let them do their thing.
At times have I felt a lack of motivation? No doubt. In college baseball, it seems like every coach is after results and after the next big job. If you are not winning, you are not succeeding. If you team batting average is not over .300, you are not a good hitting coach. If your team fielding percentage is not above .975, you are not a good defensive coach. I think back to why I started coaching, and it had nothing to do with getting coaching results. For me, I will always go back to the quality of work put in. It is important to recognize if you are consistently there to help your athletes succeed. If you are answering the questions they ask the best you can, if you are there to help work with them with whatever they need, or if you just there to shoot the shit, I consider that success. When you are there for your next job or to add to your own accolades, there is a problem.
It is most definitely easy to get caught up with the college coaching tendencies. You see coaches from other schools, big schools, and you wonder if that is what you want to be. If granted the opportunity to go to a big school and go work with the best athletes in college baseball, would that be something for me? Would that then make me more accomplished in this field? Would there still be moments of doubt? I never played in the SEC, so how could I coach in the SEC? I never played past Low A, so how could I ever coach past Low A? These are thoughts that can either drown you or make you better. Just like as a player, I strive to use these thoughts to drive me into unchartered waters that may actually turn me into more than just an “accomplished” baseball coach.
Throughout this rant, I am trying to get a clear understanding as to why I coach. What is the difference between this position and my position at an SEC school? What is the difference between a AAA hitting coach job and a Rookie ball hitting coach job? Wherever you coach, mentor, or teach you are there to help in whatever way…right? Some of my high school coaches made the biggest impact on my life. Why were they so good? They cared about me and they wanted to shape me into not only a baseball player, but also develop my skills to help me in whatever field I chose to pursue.
What is important to you? Maybe the title and the money is the most important to you. That is fine, you have to do what you have to do to get by and “succeed” in life. Maybe helping athletes achieve their highest potential is the most important to you. Helping them be the best possible person they can be. Maybe you just want to coach and coach only. Help them to learn about the game, help them to get better and reach baseball goals. Whatever it is, identify it and focus on that. Do not get caught up in the other stuff. You will most definitely lose sight of your own goals. And at the end of the day, you want to be doing something that you feel like is helping something that is bigger than just you. Read that again. Obviously, do your best to help shape what you want to be, but the most rewarding thing to me is to feel like I did something to help a team or organization that is bigger than me. Working hard for your own goals is great, but working hard to help others or help the company you work for is pretty rewarding too.
So many thoughts bundled up and then thrown out into this document. Thank you for reading. Find a reason to get up. Find a reason to work hard not just for you. Find a reason to live every single day.